How it started (1)

Everything start with the basics, people are lonely, people try to connect with other people, trying to form relations and we weren't different from that, the only different thing was, that we connected through an online game called WoW.

How does an online relationship start? It started with chatting, chatting and more chatting, first through text, later through webcam, you get attached to eachother and before you knew it, you think that you are in love. I delayed it as much as possible, he lives in Sweden for god sake, and who says that he is who he seems he is? Besides that, my biggest problem is that my family wouldn't ever allow a relationship like this. He is not a Chinese and he has no job and no education.

But I was lonely and he was lonely, we have alot common and it felt so great to talk with him, so being with him might be even greater.

After half a year of chatting, he asked me if I wanted to go visit him in Sweden, I can stay over in his appartment. In my heart I knew this can be dangerous, going there all alone, staying over in a 'strangers' house, what if he was a rapist of something like that. But love clouded my mind and I decided to take the chance, I told my family that I went on vacation with some friends ( I got a friend to cover for me) and went to Sweden. Up till now, I never told him that I loved him, nor was I his girlfriend, I went to visit him as a friend.

Was this stupid of me?

How we've met

I would describe myself as an average girl, there is nothing outstanding about me and I don't like to get too much attention. I grew up with social problems due to my timid nature and my family circumstances.

What i liked the most is playing games, roll playing games (rpg's) are my favorite type of games. It didn't took long after the release of World of Warcraft (WoW) before I totaly lost myself in it. I became a hardcore player. But this blog ain't about the dark part of my life as a hardcore gamer, it is about the love of my life I've met during that period.

I've met the love of my life 5 years ago, he joined the guild  (group of people you play together with to kill bosses in WoW) I was in, but it took 3 years before we really 'met'.

After 3 years of  hardcore WoW I finally noticed that I was wasting my life. I quitted WoW and started to put my life back on tracks again:

I started to work on my body, since childhood I always were a chubby girl, but due to long hours of gaming, I got really really fat. I weighted 80 kg's with a length of 1,63m. Now I m weighting 63 kg's and I m working to get my weight to around 56 kg's

I've found a job, it is a nice decent job and far better then sitting at home gaming.

But even with all the changed I've made in my life, I still couldn't change my timid nature, I had problems making friends and don't even talk about boyfriends, I m the kind that no man wants or so I thought.

So my days after work and weekends were just tv, tv and more tv. After a while tv gets boring and once a gamer, always a gamer, so I started playing WoW again. Though I have learned my lession, I just play it casually.

There we 'met' again.